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An Outing before the big war

As the quote goes.

“There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work learning from failure.” ~ General Colin Powell

Ok, since the quote asked me to do so, thus, I am going to follow it right now. It is two days before my exam, yet, I am still sitting in front of my hubbie, typing this innovative blog of mine. Examination is around the corner, even so, I still want to take a few minutes, even hours off. I had been pissed off by hundreds and even thousands of formulas. It is time for me to have a break. So, I went to Raja Udang, Penang for a sip of their renowned Tom Yam Mee. Sorry, I was not able to upload any photo. This is because the aroma of the Tom Yam soup is too alluring, only after I regained my conscious, I found that I had finished my meal. =.=''' Thus, I could not do anything but regretting T^T Honestly speaking, the Tom Yam Mee is delectable. It was not spicy, ( I cannot believe I can still withstand the spice as I am someone who cannot eat spicy food) it tastes sour more than spicy, thus, I recommended you guys who have the same problem as mine, to get yourself a try.

Still, not to fail you all. I stole a picture of it. This shop is really unique because it do not have any shop's name. However everyone called it guang hua xiao xue as it located beside the primary school.

After the Tom Yam, we had our second round at Tang Bo Hu -- a dessert shop. I ordered this.

It is delicious, I love its taste. Oh my gosh, you(green tea ice cream, grass jelly, and coconut milk), you all are willing to scarified for me? It was so touched to have you guys to held a conference and decided to fulfill your task here. You guys had chosen the right place. XDXD

Besides, I got a chance to sit opposite this cute adorable little girl. Her name is Yaya. She is our lecturer's daughter. We have something in common, which is both of us like grass jelly very very much. Thus, she kept on asking me for grass jelly as she had none in her bowl. The moment she shouted out "Jie Jie( Sister in Mandarin)" I could not stop but stretch my arm to feed her. ^.^ That is the reason I love baby girl so much.

Aren't she cute? Her ingenious look made me feel like pinching her. ^.^

Last but not least, I am going to show you our master piece, tata... the receipt.

RM156 !!@@

It is a really delightful night and I think I had enough charge for my revision tomorrow.

Satisfied ME :-)

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Nightmares

Inspired

Oh my gosh! The exam is coming but I am still blogging. :p

It was an inspired post by me. I did not sleep pretty well these two days. I woke up with nightmares. Maybe it is due to the over depressed feeling, the feeling of knowing the exam is around the corner, makes me feel ill. The first nightmare was something personal and I am not talking about it. I am sure you all are interested in the latter. It is a weird dream. I dreamt of a guy I knew, confessed to me. " Hey, it is a happy dream after all?" No, it isn't. For me, it isn't. Love has been a sensitive issue for me after I stepped into my feet into my secondary school compounds. After matrix, I felt so insecure of love due to an event. Thus, I know I am not ready for any relationship yet. However, what if someday a guy confess to you but you are still not yet ready. Should I go into the relationship blindly? or should I ask him to wait? to wait for me for a couples of years? What if I am still not ready although that couples of years had passed? I do not want to waste your time and my time.

The reason I am so afraid to go into any relationship is because I am afraid that you are not the person that God prepared for me. What if ? What if we end up with a not happily-ever -after ending? Friendship had stabbed me too many many times that I do not bother to count, what will happen if the same situation happens on love? When you become the only person I cared? when you had became my priority? when you become my essential? The moment knowing the fact you are going to dump me soon was like dragging me all the way from heaven to hell. To not having that kind of despair, I rather not stepping into this kind of trouble.

“Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” ― Robert A. Heinlein, Stranger in a Strange Land

Besides, I know that I am not perfect. I have too many weakness. I am an ideal smiley, someone who smiled outside yet in her heart, she had too many things untold. What if you do not like me after you see the real me? I think you will be pissed off. You will not accept this little girl with so much of imperfection. Thus, please do not come and ruin my happy life. Please, I know that most of my nightmares come true but not this one please. :(

The above picture told me love without fear . I really cannot do that. I feel so insecure.

If that dreams really come to reality, I hope that I can said this bravely. " Sorry, I am not ready. I still cannot endure the agony of heartbroken".

Heart broken. </3

Sometimes, I did feel jealous when couples holding their hands, hugging each other. However, I do not want to sleep with all the needles on my heart, going through all the sleepless night. It is too much for a bet. Maybe somedays I will understand and figure out how relationship work, but now, I just want to get rid of this stuff from my mind. I feel way better. Hope that I will not have another nightmare.

Insecure ME:-)

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My first experience :)

Fun :-)

"Buzz... Buzz," my handset vibrated when I was "concentrating" on my lecture. "Who is that?" It was a text message from my senior. She was asking me to become a MC for the Christian fellowship farewell dinner. I hesitated for a while. "What? Speaking in front on the stage, are you kidding me? I am used to talk nonsense, however, say something serious on that particular event, are you bluffing?" Thus, I texted back. " I am not pretty confident that I can do it."However, she successfully convinced me. I found that I was quite easily convinced by other people. :(

The theme of our farewell is A night t shine.

Thus, that is why I ended up being a MC for the farewell dinner. It was my first time. The event was held at the Banquet hall, forty plus people turned up. The most troublesome thing of being a MC is that you are required to do make up and wore the prettiest dress you had as you are suppose to be the center of attraction. With a great courage, I put on the same dress I wore during the farewell dinner last year. It was not very comfortable as I had to walk gracefully. Besides, I was not good in walking with high heels. Finish groaning on my attire, now, I am going to tell you something serious. My tongue and mouth were malfunctioned after the event began. Actually, I was not that nervous, however, I did not know the reason my tongue kept twisting and me myself, kept on forgetting the words. Maybe it was because I do not have sufficient time for the preparation, testes and quizzes engaged my time. :( However, I think I did not make as many mistakes as I did for my second part. Overall, it was still ok.

Still, let us not only focusing on my MC part, the objective of the dinner is to show our gratitudes and appreciation to all the seniors. The most surprising thing that happened during that night was, we, all the juniors, received a booklet from our seniors who wrote all their compliments about us. I was surprised and touched.

A pretty handmade booklet. Isn't it beautiful.

Despite of doing their final year project, they had been doing this pretty, awesome and gorgeous booklet for us. ;-( Oh no, now, I am starting to miss you all.