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Children playing Mural

Some books you read. But some books you enjoy. But some books just swallow you heart and soul - Joanne Harris  

• START THY PURSE TO FATTENING 
• CONTROL THY EXPENDITURES
• MAKE THY GOLD MULTIPLY
• GUARD THY TREASURES FROM LOSS
• MAKE OF THY DWELLING A PROFITABLE INVESTMENT 
• INSURE A FUTURE INCOME
• INCREASE THY ABILITY TO EARN 

Knowledge without application is a book that is never read. 

野子

演唱：蘇運瑩 feat.田馥甄

作詞：蘇運瑩

作曲：蘇運瑩

怎麼大風越狠

我心越蕩

幻如一絲塵土

隨風自由的在狂舞

我要握緊手中堅定

卻又飄散的勇氣

我會變成巨人

踏著力氣 踩著夢

怎麼大風越狠

我心越蕩

又如一絲消沙

隨風輕飄的在狂舞

我要深埋心頭上秉持

卻又重小的勇氣

一直往大風吹的方向走過去

吹啊吹啊 我的驕傲放縱

吹啊吹不毀我純淨花園

任風吹 任它亂

毀不滅是我 盡頭的展望

吹啊吹啊 我赤腳不害怕

我吹啊吹啊 無所謂擾亂我

你看我在勇敢地微笑

你看我在勇敢地去揮手啊

是你嗎 會給我一扇心房

讓我勇敢前行

是你呀 會給我一扇燈窗

讓我讓我無所畏懼

吹啊吹啊 我的驕傲放縱

吹啊吹不毀我純淨花園

任風吹 任它亂

毀不滅是我 盡頭的展望

吹啊吹啊 我赤腳不害怕

吹啊吹啊 無所謂擾亂我

你看我在勇敢地微笑

你看我在勇敢地去揮手啊

怎麼大風越狠 我心越蕩

我會變成巨人

踏著力氣 踩著夢

          I had encountered these questions several times since I started work. Why do you work here? Why not going back to hometown to work? I think this song, "野子", literally means wild kid, can aid my explanation. This may the reason of my addiction this song. I am a life challenger, a limit tester. I am the kind of person who did not wanna stay in my comfort zone. I wanna know how tough I am. I wanna know how much stress I can handle. I wanna test my problem solving skills. Trying to take good care of myself and doing the house chore independently. I wanna start from zero. Developing relationship with new people sounds fun. Because of this, my parents worried about me a lot. My dad always grumbled about it. He complained that I should find job in hometown . Yet, I am blessed with very understandable parents. Even though they are not very happy with my decision, they still respect me. :) 

           My boyfriend contributes 30% of the decision I made. I had enough of long distance relationship. When we were dating, my boy friend had to travel all the way up to Penang to see me. Often, he had to forcefully dragged himself around whenever we dated. That does not mean we are staying together. In fact, we are still staying 25km far apart from each other. That was my decision as well. Wanting to have enough private moments before we step into marriage.

          2 months had passed. I started to adapt to the environment. I have clearer view on my job scope. I learnt to shop groceries alone, to go for movie alone, to go for car tint alone, to window shopping alone, drive alone in KL. These are the small achievements that I made. Maybe a few years from now, I would laugh at myself from being so naive. Yet, these are the things that made the stronger you. When things did not go as what you expected, you can rest but remember to get on your foot after that. Never give up.



          

Just ME:)  I had not written any post in 2014. I decided to pick up my identity as a blogger. I would like to start fresh by telling you 20 facts about me. My full name is Pauline Chuo See Sze, in Chinese 朱㛓𡡒. The pronunciation of my Chinese name is similar to 西施 (Xi Shi was one of the renowned Four Beauties of ancient China). People tend to make fun of it. Thus, I dislike when people call my chinese name.  My left eye looks bigger than my right. I was born with a inner eye lid left eye and a single eye lid right eye. So, I cannot live without my double eyelid tape.  I got a pair of dimples, sometimes, they are significant in photos. In Asian, dimples suggest good fortune and fertility. I have Amblyopia, also known as lazy eyes.   I am a Christian. I am a Sarawakian.  I am from Sibu, a place with a lot of Foochow. I can spoke more than 5 language - Malay, English, Mandarin, Korean and Japanese. I learnt my Korean and Japanese during my university. I can only speak the basic. I can spoke in Foochow - a type of Chinese dialect. (You cannot survive in Sibu if you cannot speak Foochow. Doctor even use Foochow to communicate with their patients) I am a hot tempered person.  I regard myself as 51% introvert and 49% extrovert. I love spending time with myself. I love to socialise with people.  I have sweet teeth. I love desserts, especially matcha product.  I made desserts instead of buying them. Most of the time, the desserts are overpriced. I tend to find out the recipe after my first trial.  I love doing volunteering work.  I love taking photos.  I love to draw. I had my drawing lessons for 3 years during my secondary school.  I love to travel. Being able to meet different types of people around the world make me exited.  I am a USM fresh graduate. I completed my degree as an electrical engineer in June 2015. Make up is a must for me. I learnt make up during my long break, before entering USM.  I love to read books. Popular, Borders, MPH or any book stores in shopping mall are my favourite place.   I love to improve myself in terms of physical and mental.

    It has been a long time for not posting anything here. I was lack of enthusiastic and inspiration to write my blog. So, now it is time to stop giving myself any excuses. So, now to start my post, I want to introduce to you -- Hokkaido Cupcakes. They are soft and easily made. The tools you need are an oven and a mixer. If you do not have any mixer at home, then you can do it with your hands but it would probably take a longer time. I did the cupcakes last week and they turned out to be finger licking good. These were some of the I took during and after baking.

Before sending them into oven

After baking.

After inserting the filling and the decoration. Aren't they look alluring?

    Today, I am going to show you a song that I had listened for this couples of week. It is " Distance" by Christina Perri. The song had been released few months ago and it really touched people's heart. I do not know how will you guys think but it really touched mine.

     Ok, I promised myself to write a post once two weeks. I am addicted in this song particular recently. It is inspired, I think. It is not a really new song, but I think the lyrics did make sense. XDXD I am going to introduce this song to you, " Who says" by Selena Gomez.

    It is a new month and the date of 10th of September is becoming nearer and nearer. What is so important on that date? 10th of September is my university reopening date. Ok, it shall be the most horrible and gruesome moment this year, knowing that I need to leave this comfy home of mine, knowing that I will have to leave my kindred spirit again, knowing that I will not returned until half year later. :-( However, still, I am going to that all this with a buoyant mood. It is my second year studying in this university and yet I had not wrote a single post of it. Hmm... Am I going to write for it now. Nope, I guess nope, because there are so many things I need to talk about and I am not into that kinda mood right now.

    I want to make a to do list right here as I had not done it before. I had a feeling that I had not worked hard enough during my first year. I had been letting all my time slipped through my fingertips. So, now it is time to get serious.

A broken dream are like butterfly with broken wings. It is beautiful but still it had broken.

To Do List

"Life did not require that we be the best, only that we try our best."

Here it goes, a new semester started.. And I am going to be serious.

Ready ME:-)

     The theme of the day is gentleman. Do you know what is gentleman? In the past, people refers one who is well educated and they must come from good family and distinction. However now the definition of gentleman had changed a bit. Gentleman nowadays does not necessary refer to man who comes from good family or well educated. So, what does gentleman mean? Most of the time, people will refer man who open the door for a girl as a gentleman. It is true though. However, I think every boy has the ability to become gentleman. Even though how horrible a boy will treat other but he will treat his one and only girl friend gently. This statement will only be true if all of the guys in this world is loyal to his partner.

    Ok, let me get into my main point of the day, I just realized that I had spoken too much. The main objective of me writing this post is to introduce you the drama and movie that I had finished recently. It is a Korea drama with a title of " Gentleman Dignity ". It is said to be a male version of Sex City. I would like give you guys a short summary of the drama. The story is about four forty-one-year-old guys, who are strongly bond together by friendship. They had knew each other since secondary school. I was very astonished by how long lasting their friendship is. Then, the drama developed when very each of them found a girl they loved. It is not a really passionate love drama. This is because when guys reach their age of forty, they will not love like what that did when they are still young. It is a very mature kind of love. I love all the actors and actresses as they are so ravishing and divine. My friend who is on my same age told me that they are kinda old. Maybe this is because I prefer mature man than younger ones.  I love the last episode of the drama.There is a scene when one of the couples is too old to have a kid, they start to adopt kids from Africa.Although it is short, it is rare for a korea drama to invade this kind of value to the audience. It is a highly recommended drama. You guys shall go and watch.

Oh my gosh! The exam is coming but I am still blogging. :p


 
     It was an inspired post by me. I did not sleep pretty well these two days. I woke up with nightmares. Maybe it is due to the over depressed feeling, the feeling of knowing the exam is around the corner, makes me feel ill. The first nightmare was something personal and I am not talking about it. I am sure you all are interested in the latter. It is a weird dream. I dreamt of a guy I knew, confessed to me. " Hey, it is a happy dream after all?"  No, it isn't. For me, it isn't. Love has been a sensitive issue for me after I stepped into my feet into my secondary school compounds. After matrix, I felt so insecure of love due to an event. Thus, I know I am not ready for any relationship yet. However, what if someday a guy confess to you but you are still not yet ready. Should I go into the relationship blindly? or should I ask him to wait? to wait for me for a couples of years? What if I am still not ready although that couples of years had passed? I do not want to waste your time and my time.

    The reason I am so afraid to go into any relationship is because I am afraid that you are not the person that God prepared for me. What if ? What if we end up with a not happily-ever -after ending? Friendship had stabbed me too many many times that I do not bother to count, what will happen if the same situation happens on love?  When you become the only person I cared? when you had became my priority? when you become my essential? The moment knowing the fact you are going to dump me soon was like dragging me all the way from heaven to hell. To not having that kind of despair, I rather not stepping into this kind of trouble.

 “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” ― Robert A. Heinlein, Stranger in a Strange Land 

      Besides, I know that  I am not perfect. I have too many weakness. I am an ideal smiley, someone who smiled outside yet in her heart, she had too many things untold. What if you do not like me after you see the real me? I think you will be pissed off. You will not accept this little girl with so much of imperfection. Thus, please do not come and ruin my happy life. Please, I know that most of my nightmares come true but not this one please. :(

The above picture told me love without fear . I really cannot do that. I feel so insecure.

     If that dreams really come to reality, I hope that I can said this bravely. " Sorry, I am not ready. I still cannot endure the agony of heartbroken".

    How will you feel when you actually make a move, making your dream to come true? I think the joy is intangible. I have been working on this small little dream. Actually, I forgot my dream half way through. However, when I heard that my dream can be accomplished through world vision, I regained my passion. It is not a big dream after all. You will know what I am talking about after you make a  move by clicking the link below. Please click

I want to put a big smile on her face. I know that I have all the stuff that I need, so it is my time to distribute my love to others.

Time is important to me because I want to sing long enough to leave a message. I'm used to singing in churches where nobody would dare stop me until the Lord arrives! 

---Mahalia Jackson   

     "It's near to my house," a boy answered confidently when he was being asked by the MC. It was the answer towards this question, "Why do you choose Univesiti Sains Malaysia as a place of study?" My heart numbed the first second I heard the answer. I didn't really know the reason. The boy sounded like he was telling a funny joke,most of the students bursted into laughter. However, that was definitely not a joke for me. Somehow, his answer made me real frustrated. It looked childish to me. Maybe it was because I'm a girl who came all the way from Sarawak to Penang to continue my study.