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Chumphon Mission Trip 2.0

Due to my busy September and October's schedule, I had stopped my a book in a month challenge. Even though it sounds like an excuse, I had readjusted my schedule so that I am able to catch up with the progress.

So, what have I done in the month of September and October? I was in Melbourne, visiting my brother in September. I got to clear one of my 2016's goals in October, which was to go on mission trip. This Chumphon mission trip was lead by Pastor Matthew, who is from Li Xin Baptist Church. It was my second time participated Chumphon mission trip. I was in dilemma when the pastor told me the exact date of the mission trip. The mission trip started from 8th October until 13th October. It requested me to take a total of 7 days leaves as I need to travel all the way from Kuala Lumpur to Penang. When I was devastated, I decided to negotiate with pastor. I was given the green light to join the second half of the trip. I was fortunate that God send me an angel who was willing to accompany me throughout this crazy trip. The name of the angel is Kimberly. We have known each other for more than a decade and yet this is my first time going on a mission trip with her. She was someone who brought me back to church when I was lost. We are like superb, doing crazy things together. I am glad that God brought her to my life.

I am blessed with a bunch of understanding colleagues as well. Despite of taking so many days off, my salary was not deducted. Yup, before going for the mission trip, I have prep myself with the mindset that my salary will get deducted due to the 4 days advance leave. However, God is good all the time. Despite of providing me with enough funding, he had prepared me from future financial shortage. Yup, some of you may thought I was crazy for being so bold. I would like to think that if you are able to trust in him, he shall provide you. You would not be worry about your future. God has his plan and he will take care of you as we are God's children.

Similar to previous year, we have the opportunity to organize a vacation bible school for the children in Chumphon. The event was partially sponsor by the Chumphon Rotary Club. The theme of the VBS is journey of the map. As usual, I was the photographer of the VBS. I do enjoy being a photographer of the camp as you have the privilege to take all the ugly photos of your team members. However, it was a disaster for me when it came to make videos. This is because I need to crack my head to think of the video flow. I had decided to think of the concept I want before going for the trip. Check up the video above. Even though it was not perfect, I had put much effort into it. It basically summarise the whole mission trip. I was over the moon when I saw familiar faces coming to the VBS. It had shows that our effort do work out. I hope that God will show mercy on Chumphon and Thailand as there was underwent difficult political condition. May God provide them with glory and peace of mind. Amen.

I would like to end this post with my favourite kid. Omo ><, she is too cute.

Regards,

ME :-)

09:18
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A Gentleman's Dignity

Drama

The theme of the day is gentleman. Do you know what is gentleman? In the past, people refers one who is well educated and they must come from good family and distinction. However now the definition of gentleman had changed a bit. Gentleman nowadays does not necessary refer to man who comes from good family or well educated. So, what does gentleman mean? Most of the time, people will refer man who open the door for a girl as a gentleman. It is true though. However, I think every boy has the ability to become gentleman. Even though how horrible a boy will treat other but he will treat his one and only girl friend gently. This statement will only be true if all of the guys in this world is loyal to his partner.

Ok, let me get into my main point of the day, I just realized that I had spoken too much. The main objective of me writing this post is to introduce you the drama and movie that I had finished recently. It is a Korea drama with a title of " Gentleman Dignity ". It is said to be a male version of Sex City. I would like give you guys a short summary of the drama. The story is about four forty-one-year-old guys, who are strongly bond together by friendship. They had knew each other since secondary school. I was very astonished by how long lasting their friendship is. Then, the drama developed when very each of them found a girl they loved. It is not a really passionate love drama. This is because when guys reach their age of forty, they will not love like what that did when they are still young. It is a very mature kind of love. I love all the actors and actresses as they are so ravishing and divine. My friend who is on my same age told me that they are kinda old. Maybe this is because I prefer mature man than younger ones. I love the last episode of the drama.There is a scene when one of the couples is too old to have a kid, they start to adopt kids from Africa.Although it is short, it is rare for a korea drama to invade this kind of value to the audience. It is a highly recommended drama. You guys shall go and watch.

It is a trailer for the drama and there are many marvelous soundtracks of the drama and I love this the most. It is MY LOVE from CN Blue.

Hope you guys like it and please support this drama. :)

Drama Freak ME:-)

10:56
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Nightmares

Inspired

Oh my gosh! The exam is coming but I am still blogging. :p

It was an inspired post by me. I did not sleep pretty well these two days. I woke up with nightmares. Maybe it is due to the over depressed feeling, the feeling of knowing the exam is around the corner, makes me feel ill. The first nightmare was something personal and I am not talking about it. I am sure you all are interested in the latter. It is a weird dream. I dreamt of a guy I knew, confessed to me. " Hey, it is a happy dream after all?" No, it isn't. For me, it isn't. Love has been a sensitive issue for me after I stepped into my feet into my secondary school compounds. After matrix, I felt so insecure of love due to an event. Thus, I know I am not ready for any relationship yet. However, what if someday a guy confess to you but you are still not yet ready. Should I go into the relationship blindly? or should I ask him to wait? to wait for me for a couples of years? What if I am still not ready although that couples of years had passed? I do not want to waste your time and my time.

The reason I am so afraid to go into any relationship is because I am afraid that you are not the person that God prepared for me. What if ? What if we end up with a not happily-ever -after ending? Friendship had stabbed me too many many times that I do not bother to count, what will happen if the same situation happens on love? When you become the only person I cared? when you had became my priority? when you become my essential? The moment knowing the fact you are going to dump me soon was like dragging me all the way from heaven to hell. To not having that kind of despair, I rather not stepping into this kind of trouble.

“Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” ― Robert A. Heinlein, Stranger in a Strange Land

Besides, I know that I am not perfect. I have too many weakness. I am an ideal smiley, someone who smiled outside yet in her heart, she had too many things untold. What if you do not like me after you see the real me? I think you will be pissed off. You will not accept this little girl with so much of imperfection. Thus, please do not come and ruin my happy life. Please, I know that most of my nightmares come true but not this one please. :(

The above picture told me love without fear . I really cannot do that. I feel so insecure.

If that dreams really come to reality, I hope that I can said this bravely. " Sorry, I am not ready. I still cannot endure the agony of heartbroken".

Heart broken. </3

Sometimes, I did feel jealous when couples holding their hands, hugging each other. However, I do not want to sleep with all the needles on my heart, going through all the sleepless night. It is too much for a bet. Maybe somedays I will understand and figure out how relationship work, but now, I just want to get rid of this stuff from my mind. I feel way better. Hope that I will not have another nightmare.

Insecure ME:-)