I received a message from my best friend a while ago, saying that she is going to my university to study. I was exhilarated. However, after a few moment of joy, I came to ask myself these questions. Will I ever have the ability to take care of her if she really come to my university? Will I let her down? Will I dump her alone?  Will I neglect her? Will I ? There are so much of uncertainty in my mind, I cannot help myself from stop thinking. Maybe you will think that I had been thinking too much, but indeed, these are the questions that I need to figure them out so that the same disaster will not happen again, the same miserable scene will stop playing in front of my eyes over and over again. What am I suppose to do? I cannot answer the question of my own. I am struggling so that someone can tell me the solution.

     She is my best friend since my secondary school. She is a independent girl and the head of our small social team that time. We had some quarrels yet we are still able to maintain our strong friendship. She and our small girl group were the one who gave me my first teddy for my birthday present. However, we became not that close after we went to Form four as we studied in different classroom. Then, I continued my study in Matrix and she continued hers in STPM. She told me that she really want to get into Matrix but the Lucky Fairy was not at her side that time. I felt sorry for her too but I could not do anything to help her. Thus, after I entered my university, I kept on encourage her to study with me. Ya, my law of magnetic worked. She is now going to study with me. The difference between us is that I am going to continue my study as a second year electrical engineer while she started her first foot step as an electronic engineer. It is a pleasant news to hear that, to know that I can actually study with my best friends after we had been separated for so many years. I ... I ... do not know... Maybe I have been thinking too much. I kept on encouraging myself that everything will be fine and I  just need God to lead my way. What I can do now is pray for the best. I think, that is the only thing I can do now. :( Maybe it is true, from one of my friend's comment, saying that I am becoming more and more pessimist lately. ... Haiz.... I really do not know. Maybe I had changed, maybe not?


Uncertain ME:-)