Just Me

As the quote goes.

“There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work learning from failure.” ~ General Colin Powell

    Ok, since the quote asked me to do so, thus, I am going to follow it right now. It is two days before my exam, yet, I am still sitting in front of my hubbie, typing this innovative blog of mine. Examination is around the corner, even so, I still want to take a few minutes, even hours off. I had been pissed off by hundreds and even thousands of formulas. It is time for me to have a break. So, I went to Raja Udang, Penang for a sip of their renowned Tom Yam Mee. Sorry, I was not able to upload any photo. This is because the aroma of the Tom Yam soup is too alluring, only after I regained my conscious, I found that I had finished my meal. =.=''' Thus, I could not do anything but regretting T^T Honestly speaking, the Tom Yam Mee is delectable. It was not spicy, ( I cannot believe I can still withstand the spice as I am someone who cannot eat spicy food) it tastes sour more than spicy, thus, I recommended you guys who have the same problem as mine, to get yourself a try.

Still, not to fail you all. I stole a picture of it. This shop is really unique because it do not have any shop's name. However everyone called it guang hua xiao xue as it located beside the primary school.

It is delicious, I love its taste. Oh my gosh,  you(green tea ice cream, grass jelly, and coconut milk), you all are willing to scarified for me? It was so touched to have you guys to held a conference and decided to fulfill your task here. You guys had chosen the right place. XDXD

     Besides, I got a chance to sit opposite this cute adorable little girl. Her name is Yaya. She is our lecturer's daughter. We have something in common, which is both of us like grass jelly very very much. Thus, she kept on asking me for grass jelly as she had none in her bowl. The moment she shouted out "Jie Jie( Sister in Mandarin)" I could not stop but stretch my arm to feed her. ^.^ That is the reason I love baby girl so much. 

Aren't she cute? Her ingenious look made me feel like pinching her. ^.^

    Last but not least, I am going to show you our master piece, tata... the receipt. 

RM156 !!@@

    It is a really delightful night and I think I had enough charge for my revision tomorrow. 

Oh my gosh! The exam is coming but I am still blogging. :p


 
     It was an inspired post by me. I did not sleep pretty well these two days. I woke up with nightmares. Maybe it is due to the over depressed feeling, the feeling of knowing the exam is around the corner, makes me feel ill. The first nightmare was something personal and I am not talking about it. I am sure you all are interested in the latter. It is a weird dream. I dreamt of a guy I knew, confessed to me. " Hey, it is a happy dream after all?"  No, it isn't. For me, it isn't. Love has been a sensitive issue for me after I stepped into my feet into my secondary school compounds. After matrix, I felt so insecure of love due to an event. Thus, I know I am not ready for any relationship yet. However, what if someday a guy confess to you but you are still not yet ready. Should I go into the relationship blindly? or should I ask him to wait? to wait for me for a couples of years? What if I am still not ready although that couples of years had passed? I do not want to waste your time and my time.

    The reason I am so afraid to go into any relationship is because I am afraid that you are not the person that God prepared for me. What if ? What if we end up with a not happily-ever -after ending? Friendship had stabbed me too many many times that I do not bother to count, what will happen if the same situation happens on love?  When you become the only person I cared? when you had became my priority? when you become my essential? The moment knowing the fact you are going to dump me soon was like dragging me all the way from heaven to hell. To not having that kind of despair, I rather not stepping into this kind of trouble.

 “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” ― Robert A. Heinlein, Stranger in a Strange Land 

      Besides, I know that  I am not perfect. I have too many weakness. I am an ideal smiley, someone who smiled outside yet in her heart, she had too many things untold. What if you do not like me after you see the real me? I think you will be pissed off. You will not accept this little girl with so much of imperfection. Thus, please do not come and ruin my happy life. Please, I know that most of my nightmares come true but not this one please. :(

The above picture told me love without fear . I really cannot do that. I feel so insecure.

     If that dreams really come to reality, I hope that I can said this bravely. " Sorry, I am not ready. I still cannot endure the agony of heartbroken".