Just Me

Time is important to me because I want to sing long enough to leave a message. I'm used to singing in churches where nobody would dare stop me until the Lord arrives! 

---Mahalia Jackson   

      Something really made me proud today was that I finally finished my first assignment. I had been working on it from nine in the morning until now. My assignment was building a robot base. It was something I dreamt to try. I was astonished when I was holding the tools, all the tools that I was not supposed to touch at home, were displayed in front of me, that really triggered all the adrenaline hormone inside my body. "Wao!" was the first sound I managed to make. We were being taught the way of handling the tools, then we were given the whole day to finish the robot. I started the measuring step with my group member. Then, we moved to our next session, the cutting part, I was stuck in the beginning, not really familiar with the tool, they felt so different. The tools were like foreign items to my body, my hands could not really cooperate perfectly with them. When I got my next trial, I stay focused, guess what, my senior praised me that I can even cut faster than the boy beside me. Haha XDXD

My monster XDXD

I just love this picture <3

     "It's near to my house," a boy answered confidently when he was being asked by the MC. It was the answer towards this question, "Why do you choose Univesiti Sains Malaysia as a place of study?" My heart numbed the first second I heard the answer. I didn't really know the reason. The boy sounded like he was telling a funny joke,most of the students bursted into laughter. However, that was definitely not a joke for me. Somehow, his answer made me real frustrated. It looked childish to me. Maybe it was because I'm a girl who came all the way from Sarawak to Penang to continue my study.

"The belly rules the mind"--Spanish proverb.

    Flipping through recipe books continuously, losing the control of my mind, I am on my route to insanity.     I personally agree, not, I am totally agree, more precisely , I agree to the above proverb wholeheartedly. I love food but most of the time I enjoyed the progress of making it, this is because nothing is more valuable than the smiles of the persons eating them.

    The recipe of today is Cheese and Button Mushrooms bun. This is my first time making buns but the outcome is really unexpected. They taste real good, they were splendid. I use the past tense "were" because most of them are lying on my stomach bed now. Haha XD. They play their role of ruling my belly perfectly.

My Snow whites. They were sleeping beauty. How gorgeous they were.

Wao.. Volcano eruption.. Cheesy lava everywhere.

    This is the conversation that I loved the most. It was from my family and I heard that from my mom. My mom brought some freshly steamed buns for my second brother (Brother B) who was currently studying in the afternoon session. After eating...

Emo ME :-)

    Yesterday, I finished reading a book, a creepy book. This book casted a magical spell on me. I thought I could struggle and free myself from the spell but I failed. It made me cry, this was the first book that really touched my heart. I love the way the author of this book navigated his story and the way he described the inner feeling of both of the main character. Normal love novel only described the inner feeling of one character, which most probably was female's. However, this book was so extraordinary, it described both, the author put the male's feeling on the odd numbered chapters, female's feeling on the even numbered chapters. "That means I have to repeat the same event?" I heard you. Do you ever heard some sort of quote that means male and female came from different planets. The author wrote something on that, the same event but contrasting thinkings and emotions. Like normal novel too, after reading, I would have this thought, there won't be such a guy like that, yet there is. The story was based on real one. So, let me show you how the books looked like...

This is the book. You may buy it in any Popular bookstore. It is not expansive, quite affordable, RM23 is its price.

     Picking such book to read on, I shall say it was like a pleasing incident. I didn't really like love novel. The reason I picked this book was mainly because of the author, before I bought this book, I had read another book from him. "How would you grade yourself today?" is the title of the book. Then, I found out this writer wrote pretty well, so that is why I decided to buy another book written by him. From the bookshelf, I quickly grabbed this book," Can we be reunited again?", I didn't flip the content of this book because I thought this must be another self-enrichment book, something that I needed to enrich myself. Then, at home, I started reading, not the book that I wanted. Still, I cannot stop myself from reading it. Wao, what a book!

     After reading the book-- Can we be reunited again? I surfed on the internet to find the song for this novel and most importantly the ending. The author wrote three endings for this book, maybe because the book I bought was published by Malaysia's publisher, I cannot find the thing I wanted, but I'm still working hard on it. Wish me good luck in finding the ending of this book! ^.^

    This is the link of the SONG <3, hope you guys love it. There are three version of it, However, my favorite version is the third version. I hope you guys will enjoy it. Have a blessed day :-)


ME :-)

Just ME :-)

ME :-) and my smiley

Na Na !

     Today is the first day of the month of August. I hear you. You are saying that this is a common thing and we celebrate it every month. What is the big deal? Aha, you are wrong. Today is the big day for my laptop, more specifically, today is the day my notebook reborn.

     Leopard is well known as the fastest animal in the world. It can run at over 58 kilometers per hour. Lion is the king of the field. For me, it is the most handsome cat. Both Leopard and Lion come from big cats family in the genus Panthera. Besides, they are also members of the family Felidae. So, what are the connection between all the cats and my laptop's revolution? If you are a Apple freak like me, you may know what I'm talking about. Apple had introduced their new operating system OS X Lion about a month ago. It is said to be the world's most advanced operating system. After overcoming some obstacles, I manage to meet my Lion and I'm testing it right now.

Waiting patiently for the installation.

Meet my Babe-- Lion

This is the upgrade that I love the most.  It appears to me like I'm using a iPhone or a iPad rather than a Mac.

A good book on your shelf is a friend that turns its back on you and remains a friend.  ~Author Unknown

Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.  ~Charles W. Eliot 

     I did believed these two magnificent quotes but something happened to me this morning which made me concluded that a book was somehow aggressive.

     After finishing my breakfast ( I would prefer to call it as brunch), my brother asked my mom to bring him to the bookstore. He wanted to buy some gifts for his friends. I tagged along. So, I walked into my favorite place of the whole Sibu Town. The bookstore was crowded with people. I thought some part of it was due to this blessed day-- Sunday.  I submerged myself into the delightful sea of books, ignoring all the people. I picked some books for myself. Then, I leaned on one of the bookshelves, starting to dig into it. Then, in a sudden, some of these naughty books from the bookshelf that I was leaning on, jumped off from their "room". I knew they were really excited to see a beautiful lady like me but I thought they had overdone that. Haha XD So, without hesitation, I kindly picked up all the books so that they may live happily ever after with their friends and families. A happy ending.



                                    THE END!!!


STOP!!! I HAVEN'T FINISH TELLING MY STORY.  THE END !!!



    When I was bending my body, picking them up, a book jumped off and knocked my head. "Ouch!" was my first reaction towards the incident. I used my left hand to feel my head. I want to make sure that there were no serious injury. I didn't want to appear as a main character of this single piece of Newspaper headline -- "Book, the silent weapon ". So, that is how I received my precious gift ---a bump from my adorable little friend today.


Unlucky ME :-)

Me XD Hi, I'm ME :-). My real name is Pauline. You may call me either one of them. That is something I would like to share with you guys. Haha, actually, I was bored so I edited this pretty picture of mine. I was really satisfied with my masterpiece. Hope you guys feel that too. XD

     Don't borrow someone else spectacles to view yourself with.

     That was a quote by Simon Travaglia, one of the main reason I bought this beauty. Sorry, I was bluffing and looming in my world of imagination just now. Here come the extremely serious version. I bought myself a company this morning. "Lumberjack," was his name, a cool yet adorable name. He had a really aggressive appearance. The right side of his arm even had an tattoo. Three white magnificent words, "Rugged yet stylish"stood out. That really meaned something. He was not a good boy that I could mess with. I do better be careful. He had an unique skin colour, rugged black, an unfavorable colour for most of the girl but he astonished me. Holding him for the first time, I was electrocuted. His hold was so firm and tender. My world seemed magically complete with him standing in front of my eyes. We were meant to be together. I knew instinctively he will make a good company. Come, my loving friend, let's hold hand and walked with me until the end of the world. Be my support while I am walking on the route of success.

My Lumberjack

A beautiful world awaiting for you and me.

     "Laughter is the best medicine," it is a famous quote and somehow is scientifically proven. Human is a really complicated living organism. They know this theory but they don't seem to applicate it. I do like to admit that, sometimes, the problems happened in our life do make us stop laughing. However, do you know? If we stop laughing, slowly, we will forget the sensation of feeling happy. The "n" shape of our mouth shall remain permanently. Though, in this piece of fabulous and magnificent piece of land, there lived a group of blessed people, we named them "The Smiley". "The Smiley" are the people who are granted with this special personality- optimistic. Smiley manage to laugh effortlessly,bringing laughter and happiness to every people. They seem to have no worries or troubles. The magic of laughter works perfectly on them. They are the group of people we envy the most. You may wonder why they are always happy. Before answering that question, I do like to show you the bloody truth behind all the smiling faces.

I'm Smiley.

     Ignoring the smiling mask, Smiley have the most fragile heart of the world. They may look tough outside but they are weak inside. They like being secretive, hiding their sadness behind everyone else. This is because they do not want anyone to look them sympathetically when they are in their horrible situation. They just want to show the best of themselves to all mankind. So, this makes their rooms Smiley's favorite places. If they felt themselves being hurt, they won't spoke out at that particular moment. However, the moment they reached their rooms, they would close all the windows and doors, screaming and crying under their lovely blanket. They feel safe there. Being there is like isolating themselves from the world. They choose to hide everything from anyone else. They like to keep everything to themselves. No one can really understand them. They cannot even understand themselves. They like to act but not in a wicked way. They can weep over a thing a moment ago,but a moment later, they can appear as if nothing had happened smiling and chatting with a group of people. They should be honored Oscar Prizes. They love taking care of others but not themselves. They like to distribute their love but in the end, none of the love have been returned, leaving them alone crying. They are the kindest people and also the most silly people of the world. Still, they prefer to live like this although they get hurt frequently. They prefer getting themselves hurt than hurting anyone else.

     "Overjoyed," was the word best described me in this particular moment. I cannot believe it. I finally did it.

The story began like this...
     I borrowed a wooden cube from my best friend six months ago. It was not an ordinary cube. It was a combination of twelve small different sized wooden pieces. I brought all the pieces home. Luckily, I didn't lose any of those.

This is it!

I think I'm going to return  you to your owner soon...

"Why should he (she) treat me like this?

Why couldn't we return to our pass, when we were deeply in love? 

Why couldn't he (she) keep his (her) promise?"

Unfortunately, I can't answer all the "Why? Why? Why?" questions of yours.
I'm not God. I'm not a love counselor. I'm not even him (her).

But, I want to share this piece of story to you. The story began...


   A girl broke up with her boyfriends, The girl was sad, she wept every single day, every times she breathe, the ache doubled, every times she ate, the food seems to burn along her throat.  She constantly hit the most painful part of her body -- her heart. Her heart was cold, miserable and lonely now. She felt like wanting to get  rid of it. She couldn't sleep, she was waken up by the same old nightmare every night. The wonderful memory with her boyfriend had turned up to be the nastiest thing in the world. She couldn't understand. She couldn't accept the truth. They were so deeply in love. she was the princess in the fairy tale living happily ever after with her prince charming. Everything was so delightful but a disastrous hurricane walked by and stole all her things. Nothing was left but pain. PAIN. Still, she wanted him back.


    Everyday, she prayed, wishing and hoping that the boy would return. The Benevolent GOD heard her, then He send one of His angel to go and help this pitiful young lady. When the girl was praying as usual, a stunning white light appeared, she was shocked and terrified at first, but she relaxed when the angel came and touched her head.

The angel spoke, " I will grant your wish, young lady, I will make him love you forever."
After hearing that, the girl overjoyed, "Thank you! Thank you, Angel!"

"Are you sure? Are you sure this is your final decision?" asked the angel thoughtfully.
"Why not?" the girl asked in confusion.

"I can make him love you eternally but I can't guarantee that you will love him throughout your whole life," the angel explained," I can change his heart but I can't change yours, are you sure you will love him FOREVER? "

"What if? I'm saying what if.... What if I don't love him anymore?" the girl asked with her trembled voice.
"He will continually to love you, my dear, he will love you FOREVER, " the angel paused, the girl looked down, " And you will suffer FOREVER.

The girl stoned. Silently, the angel left the room, leaving the girl. The girl sat on the floor with her head down, thinking the question over and over again.


The end.

     If you were the girl in this piece of story, will you have the confidence to love him FOREVER? The girl inside this story clearly knew the fact that human will change, the feeling towards someone will also change.
Often, we heard the line below,"I cannot live without him (her). I was nothing without him (her). She was my heroic, my drug, I can't stop myself being addictive." At first, we will find that romantic, they are honey or sweets in a relationship but they are also the knives and the arrows that poked into your heart. They can bring magnificent effect towards human being when a relationship failed to sustain. What I'm going to tell you is that, changes do happened, time is the most important factor in most of the changes. When the time passed, the pain and all your feeling will numbed and faded. Then, we will finally realized that he or she was not that important after all. He or she was just a passerby  in my life, they are nothing. Think this over again, you have been living a happy life before he or she appeared and interrupted into your life, you can also live a happy life without him.


     A piece of advice to all couples, that is, not to believe fully all the promises that he or she had made, this is because he or she may changed. Ironically speaking, even the word " BELIEVE" has an " LIE" in it.


Sincerely ME :-)

   Flipping through one of my mom's recipe book, I discovered this piece of incredible recipe.I paralyzed after looking at the stunning picture. I can't breathe regularly.It was love at my first sight. "I'm going to make this!" I told myself. I begged my mom for letting me to do it. but she didn't respond ,only until a few days before Father's Day. It ended up to be a gift for my beloved and adorable father. I hope my father would treasure it. My mom helped me a lot. I'm not skillful enough to make these things on my own. Plus, she found me not capable as I always did clumsy things. Haha! I can't help myself from being butterfingered. Originally, it was a cheese pie but I modified it. So, that is how it turned up to be a cheese cake. I did made several decoration on the cake. It was not as beautiful as I predicted. Overall, I had done a marvelous job.

That was how it looked like before I put it into my refrigerator.

After taking it out from its container :-)

I'm going to eat you!

   Besides, I did made another dessert for my family. Its name is "Savoury Quiche". Isn't that a really cool name? It has a good coordinate between salty and spicy. It is a saliva triggering dessert. My second brother loves it very much.

You are the only "Savoury Quiche" in my eyes. I'm going to get you. XD

After taking it out from the oven...

Wao!

    "Ring! Ring!," the phone vibrated tremendously, no one was in the house at this particular time apart from ME :-) and my youngest brother. I guesses I would be the one who picked up the phone as my brother had glued his eyes on the computer's screen.


     I signed. "Alright, I will get the phone call myself," I murmured, "Why should human being invent this stupid equipment? It serves no purpose but destroy my mood on watching movie." The moment I picked up the phone, it was a familiar voice on the other side of the line, too familiar that make me feel like wanting to cut off the telephone line. He was my friend's boyfriend, he greeted me with his usual playful tone. Oh no! That really further worsened my mood. :-( However, the moment he hanged his phone to my friend, I had a extreme mood swing, it was like switching yourself from hell to heaven. I got the chance to speak to her, that pretty cheer me up. :-) My friend had to stay at home because of some incident. That totally freak me out because I can't hang out with her. After knowing that she was on her route of recovering, I felt relived. Guess what? I enjoyed every moment, more specifically, every second talking to her.She is some kind of my soul mate. When I was in my hardships, no one seemed to listen or understand me but she did.Sometimes, she even gave me an unpredictable extraordinary respond, that really lightened up my day.



     She is awesome, fabulous and fantastic, forever she shall be. She has a very unique personality. She never had a temper, she never got mad at me. Every time, I bullied her, she never complained, she just smiled. She is a spiritual holder of this famous quote, "Let bygones be bygones". That is something I cannot achieve. I really want her continue be my company. No! That is something that only happens in my dream. Reality is cruel, we have different life destiny, and soon we shall be apart, catching our own dream. I know, from now, I have to be independent. Thank you, Irene for being a wonderful friend, do go to her blog to support her.


Sincerely ME :-)

      "Complicated" is the best word to described me.There are two people live within me. They are intangible. I just know that they are totally different from each other. Because of these discrete personalities, I have a really bad temper. I tend to get angry easily. Hmm,that indirectly becomes the reason for me to start writing blog. I want to suppress and take a good control of myself. I know everyone has his or her weakness, nobody is perfect. I'm not going to become that "nobody". I just want to be the best me, to become someone who is nearly perfect. Hope you guys will enjoy looking my blog. I'm a newbie in this era, please do comment when I make any mistakes.

Sincerely ME :-)