Jealousy, a word that is so simple to type yet gave me another sobbing night. I do not know the reason my tears coming out so damn easily :(. The trigger was just a stupid singing competition. Just a simple competition. I just have to endure the fact that I cannot really sing. Ya, I cannot sing. I used to be a choir member, a choir member that cannot sing very well. That is me. I felt jealous of one of my church member as she has God's gift, the perfect voice. I am just getting jealous. I hope that this feeling will fade away after this post. Nothing will change if I continue to get jealous. It only makes me feel worse. No one is going to get hurt except myself, so, stop feeling jealous. No one is going to pity me. What I need to do is to stop having this sort of feeling and move on with a smile :) Just smile like what I used to do. :)