Just Me

    I was very very busy last few weeks because I had three tests in a row. Now, I was glad that it was finally over. Last night, it was the harshest time I had ever gone true. It was very humiliating though. :( It was my first time weeping after hearing my mom's voice.

 
     In the other side of the phone, she kept on asking me not to cry but I just could not help it. I cannot withstand the pressure. I could not do in any of the two previous test. I feel myself so stupid. I kept on wondering the reason I could not cope up with the study. Then, I started to blame the lecturer for coming out with such nasty test questions and yet they did not even teach us probably. :( I started to blame the book for having so complicated description and explanation. Then, I end up blaming myself for not having smart brain. The brain blame for heart for not having the inspiration to study :(. The blaming never end. It was like an endless loop. After the call, my mom told me that it was my time to stop crying, then she hanged up her phone. I did not stop the crying immediately, continue for a while, and then I went to the wash room to clean my face. My eyes were red, swollen and tired. Just then I realized that it was my time to stop, to stop all the negative feeling and concentrate on my study. I used to be such a happy girl but I did not know the exact location of that girl now. Did she still exist in my soul? If not, where had she been disappearing? Where is she? Maybe, university life has truly change the inside me. :(



Falling ME :-(

    Today, I am going to show you a song that I had listened for this couples of week. It is " Distance" by Christina Perri. The song had been released few months ago and it really touched people's heart. I do not know how will you guys think but it really touched mine.

     Ok, I promised myself to write a post once two weeks. I am addicted in this song particular recently. It is inspired, I think. It is not a really new song, but I think the lyrics did make sense. XDXD I am going to introduce this song to you, " Who says" by Selena Gomez.

    It is a new month and the date of 10th of September is becoming nearer and nearer. What is so important on that date? 10th of September is my university reopening date. Ok, it shall be the most horrible and gruesome moment this year, knowing that I need to leave this comfy home of mine, knowing that I will have to leave my kindred spirit again, knowing that I will not returned until half year later. :-( However, still, I am going to that all this with a buoyant mood. It is my second year studying in this university and yet I had not wrote a single post of it. Hmm... Am I going to write for it now. Nope, I guess nope, because there are so many things I need to talk about and I am not into that kinda mood right now.

    I want to make a to do list right here as I had not done it before. I had a feeling that I had not worked hard enough during my first year. I had been letting all my time slipped through my fingertips. So, now it is time to get serious.

A broken dream are like butterfly with broken wings. It is beautiful but still it had broken.

To Do List

"Life did not require that we be the best, only that we try our best."

Here it goes, a new semester started.. And I am going to be serious.

Ready ME:-)

     The theme of the day is gentleman. Do you know what is gentleman? In the past, people refers one who is well educated and they must come from good family and distinction. However now the definition of gentleman had changed a bit. Gentleman nowadays does not necessary refer to man who comes from good family or well educated. So, what does gentleman mean? Most of the time, people will refer man who open the door for a girl as a gentleman. It is true though. However, I think every boy has the ability to become gentleman. Even though how horrible a boy will treat other but he will treat his one and only girl friend gently. This statement will only be true if all of the guys in this world is loyal to his partner.

    Ok, let me get into my main point of the day, I just realized that I had spoken too much. The main objective of me writing this post is to introduce you the drama and movie that I had finished recently. It is a Korea drama with a title of " Gentleman Dignity ". It is said to be a male version of Sex City. I would like give you guys a short summary of the drama. The story is about four forty-one-year-old guys, who are strongly bond together by friendship. They had knew each other since secondary school. I was very astonished by how long lasting their friendship is. Then, the drama developed when very each of them found a girl they loved. It is not a really passionate love drama. This is because when guys reach their age of forty, they will not love like what that did when they are still young. It is a very mature kind of love. I love all the actors and actresses as they are so ravishing and divine. My friend who is on my same age told me that they are kinda old. Maybe this is because I prefer mature man than younger ones.  I love the last episode of the drama.There is a scene when one of the couples is too old to have a kid, they start to adopt kids from Africa.Although it is short, it is rare for a korea drama to invade this kind of value to the audience. It is a highly recommended drama. You guys shall go and watch.